Only Child

Slice of Life 2019: Day 28

At 12,
my papa took me to a park.
I have something to tell you,
he said.

Before your mother,
I was married.
I have two daughters
from that time
and you will meet them

I opened my purse,
pulled out a mirror
and combed my hair.

Now a blur,
the drive across town
was an eternity of
roof tops and roads.

a small home appeared
with no trees.
My heart was a leaky faucet
dripping a rapid beat
as I mounted the steps.

I, platinum
longing to see my reflection
of lips, eyes or shape
in the two women who approached me

only shadows and lines
of some distant awareness.

I entered their cave
of words and memories
and left that strange den
certain, solitary,
and absolutely an only child.

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6 thoughts on “Only Child

  1. Wow. I can’t imagine this. At the same time, I am jealous, as I was never able to meet the daughter my father had from his first marriage. Like you, I don’t think I would have felt sisterhood with her, but I would have wanted that moment of meeting. But whoa. At 12?! Such a hard an impossible age. I love that your response was to take out your mirror and comb your hair. I could feel that so strongly, feel the emptiness, the fidgety-ness of needing to do something with your hands. Beautiful.

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  2. Yes, that must have been a tough meeting. I of course knew them when they were born. Yet, to not know about them until you were 12 had to rough.
    I have a half brother and two half sisters, but I grew up knowing them. No, even though we all had the same dad, we are all different.๐Ÿ˜Š Love, Aunt Lee.
    PS Your hair always looks nice. ๐Ÿ˜

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  3. I am one of those sisters you met that day. And I too never felt a sister bond. But as I have grown up and have grandkids now I look back and wish I could know you better. I thought you knew about us,. I never thought about how you must have felt. It was weird for us because our father never raised me and my sister Joyce so I donโ€™t even know him other than his name. I remember that day. I believe you had on bib overalls. I was checking out your lips eyes and ears too. I thought you looked like Joyce but now I think you look like me. Same lips and eyes. When my 3rd grandson was born 4 years ago I looked you up on Facebook because I thought he looked like the Boles side of my lost family. And he does. My (our) sister Joyce has a son who looks a lot like your son. I grew up knowing about you but not knowing you.

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    1. Hi Penny! Iโ€™m so glad you saw this and responded. I would like to know you and your family. And, to see you again. We can fill in some of these gaps, which we both have a lot from that time. Ill msg you on FB and we can talk more. Thank you so much for your response.

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